I can’t sleep. I keep thinking about you. And then I keep thinking about the number on the scale going up and the exercise I’m going to do tomorrow to forget about you and I can’t sleep


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Anonymous asked: I know recovery isn't simple, but it's worth it! And don't doubt, you are beautiful 😘

Thank you beautiful.. It just doesn’t feel worth it at the moment :(

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I don’t even know how I feel at the moment. Why did I change? Why did I recover? I was a better person before I did, everyone knows it, and I feel sick to the stomach


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mo0n-w0lf:

matildasmind:

Saw Elmira (mo0n-w0lf) today and it was hella cute! And eating disorders were not invited on this day out! We got Nutella crepes 💕 follow her omg x

Thanks for coming down darling! Omfg today was perfect wish it was for longer tho! x

So do I! I’ll deffo come down again soon, and possibly bring Mark and Lyley with me ;) oooo 💕


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Saw Elmira (mo0n-w0lf) today and it was hella cute! And eating disorders were not invited on this day out! We got Nutella crepes 💕 follow her omg x


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This is a soppy post I warn you you will die from the cheesy mess

matildasmind:

Shaking from happiness because well what can I say, God loves me obviously. I mean he puts me through crap but it’s worth it. It’s worth it just to see your face and it’s just so worth it. I can’t wait till the day when I’m happy, and I only cry at soppy romantic films and stories about puppies…

Reading this made me cry because I can do this man


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balancinghealth:

My brain needs to stop thinking losing weight will make me happy

My brain needs to stop thinking relapse will make everything better

Because it hasn’t
And it won’t

(Source: reinventingmysoul, via finding-jodi)


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unburdenin-g:

yes my body is healthy but my head is still jumbled and numbers still plague my every thought and there’s nothing i want more than to crawl back into the shell that i was

so please don’t assume that i’m ‘better’ just because now there’s padding between my bones and my skin. i’m far from it and i wish that somehow people could see my struggle

(via leaving-theworld)


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Bulimia & Anorexia since I was 15…My weight/loss/gain since i was child has tormented me. No amount of help has ever healed my pain about it. But YOU have. My boyfriend prefers me curvier, when i eat and am healthy and not so worried about my looks, I’m happy. Happier then I’ve ever been. i am not going to go on a psycho-spree because of scrutiny.

-Lady Gaga (via princessofgenovia)


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We are prescribing for fat people what we diagnose as disordered eating in thin people.

-Deb Burgard, keynote at the 2011 NAAFA conference (via smashasomebox)

(Source: loniemc, via finding-jodi)


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We are prescribing for fat people what we diagnose as disordered eating in thin people.

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Deb Burgard, keynote at the 2011 NAAFA conference (via smashasomebox)

THIS OMG and no one even cares or sees it. When I see normal weight, overweight, even obese people going on starvation diets, cutting calories to unhealthy levels, I just want to bawl my eyes out. It’s so, so wrong.

(via princessofgenovia)

(Source: loniemc, via princessofgenovia)


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I’d rather be alive than thin. Thin, for me, was tired and flaky. My skin was dry, my hair falling out, no sleep, no energy, no motivation. My muscles were beginning to waste away and I said no to my body when it was screaming for nourishment… Thin was hell. Thin was doctors and lectures and an ocean of tears. Today, thin is still what half my mind wants, but the other half is stronger and says “you can recover. you can learn to live again.” I’ll take this life over being thin any day.

-(via bitingthehandthatstarvesme)

(Source: this-is-the-state-of-grace, via staystrongfighton)


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litttlehippie:

i’m not a fucking skeleton anymore

i’m a girl with a smile and hair that shines and skin that glows and eyes that sparkle and heart that beats and bones that hold me together

i’m fucking brave and i’m a fucking warrior, I fucking fight and I will keep fighting until I’ve won, i’m not a fucking skeleton anymore, I’m more alive than I have ever been

(Source: mxsxlf, via staystrongfighton)


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unburdenin-g:

IM SO ANGRY AT MY EATING DISORDER I JUST WANNA EAT CHOCOLATE AND CAKE AND NOODLES WITHOUT HATING MYSELF

(via staystrongfighton)


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